finally i decided to use a new blog..

 

the address is http://www.rahrahland.blogspot.com

 

i noe it sounds stupid.. but then there is a meaning behind this url..

 

in life i have so many things to comment on.. but then i can't possibly say everything out.. neither do i have the courage to say some bad things out.. so rahrahland is suppose to be a place where freedom of speech is justified.. yet responsiblity for wad u say is also impt.. u got to be accounted for wad comments u wanna say.. so link me.. if u want me to link u also can.. tag it at my tagboard.. i will just see how to change the blogskin and the functions.. cos it really is ugly rite now.. relink ppl!!

 

as for msn space i shall use it to refer at times.. i find it nice to read my past.. cos its like a growing up stage.. u noe u can recall wad u feel at tt moment.. then its like wow.. i actually did this and that and said this and that.. but rahrahland is a new blog.. a new try out.. if i fail in maintaing rahrahland i will be back here.. with all my fotos and songs which make this place so laggy.. paiseh to every reader cos its really taking lots of time to load rite.. haha.. cya at rahrahland!!!

the haze is killing me!!!.. i m out of breath.. so stop making me angry or worked up.. i will just faint..

 

good nite to all my darlings.. slp well.. i gotta go and slp le.. take care..

recently came back home damn late.. got lots of thing to do..

 

today had pw op workshop.. well nice.. the coach said to smile more.. i realise smiling really brings colour to your life.. suddenly i felt everything arnd me is also smiling.. its so nice.. and everywhere i go i leave a happy scent.. and i will feel like i m ready to help anyone in need of help.. even strangers.. smile is really a powerful tool..

 

i recently created a new blog at blogspot.. well seems like ppl are not goin there so i goin to make tt my secret blog.. tt only those who really notice it noes.. yeah..

 

-love ya..

yah.. gj is my role model!! saw him on the tv.. heard wad he had say..

 

a frend of mine.. a close one.. one tt has been with me for 10 years.. we had the same amt of time.. and he has accomplish such great amt of work.. yet i m still like a nth in this society.. useless me..

 

he served as a wake up call to me.. at least i have to be commited to my work and then contribute to this society.. i dun wanna be a useless man and be a burden to others..

 

he really knows wad he wants and wad he is doin.. at least he has not lost his direction.. many a times i actually lost it.. and sidetrack alot.. he has really made me see things in a big pic.. cos i m just a small person in this world.. yet all humans, minute, can change the huge world..

 

its the mind of the humans tt change the world.. tt change everything.. thanks for him.. cos he really let me appreciate things and value things more..

 

promos? its over... it is impt.. but not everything.. for those who are sadden over it.. look big.. is promos everything? if it is, how bout the os tt u have took.. how about the coming a levels? how abt the friends u have? how abt ur family and siblings? its really not everything.. if u fail, then just work hard the next time.. its not everything.. bless u ppl.. and thanks to gj again.. i noe he wun read my blog..

do u have special incidences in life tt u sometimes also find it hard to explain such coincedences? i have some to share..

 

1) do u sometimes try to avoid and hide from somebody yet always get to see the person.. its like tryin ur best not to meet the person yet after bending a corner u see the person or after coming down the stairs u will see the person again.. kind of thing? well i do have.. its like somehow it always occur.. even i got the feeling tt somehow i will still meet the person and the nxt moment it happen.. i sometimes feel tt is fate.. and its a trick tt god play on us human isn't it?

 

2) do you have times when u saw a scene and u felt tt u happen to be in tt place bofore somewhere in ur dreams but somehow its difficult to explain.. its like at times u feel tt u seem to have been in this place before with the same happenings yet this has nver happen b4 or perhaps in ur dreams.. tt kind of coincedences.. i think some of us do feel tt way at least once in our life.. isn't it weird.. its like u feel u have been here with this person talking to u at tt moment and the topic was like discuss at tt place also.. but yet this has nver happen or perhaps in our dreams.. i dunno wads this but its like our past lifes' history kind of feeling.. wow tts scary..

 

kk tts all i can think of.. if u all got any such incidences do share with me.. and 25/06 ppl mon 10am lets go zoo!! cya there.. as for the others..wish u all the best in ur endeavors..

today went to play basketball in the morning.. haiz.. the others late like hell.. so haiz.. then i went to marina had sakae sushi buffet.. damn full.. then went to play pool and then go home..

 

while we goin back home jh ask wad does hmv stands for.. then we dunno.. then he said cos there is this dog in the logo.. then hmv means for his master's voice.. and then i manipulate to his mother's voice.. haha.. then gj add on ya.. cos the dog is a bitch.. haha

 

then we past by mph.. then we guess its meaning again.. and of course my creative mind tell me it means my ping hua.. haha.. omg..

 

then on the train saw zhi kai's hp and there is this very meaning ful phrase..

"if i can't go on, i go on" then i very shallow mind.. said.. if u cannot go on then how u go on.. haha

then zk said shldn't look at the literal meaning.. shld go in deeper..

then gj continue to crap.. if we can't eat shit.. we eat shit

if u can't play com u play com

haha damn funny..

 

today is fun.. but i lost to wd in winning 11 again.. haiz.,. hate to lose..

finally the 4-day long promos are over.. haiz.. suppose to go k box to celebrate today.. then suddenly dun feel like goin.. no mood.. haiz.. prob becos not much ppl goin.. so i din go.. and somemore i m the only guy.. haha i realise i need to change singing groups all the time or else everytime the same grp of ppl i also dun find anything interesting.. so prob can someone jio me to sing ba..

 

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haiz.. still got pw!!! but nver mind tmr goin to eat sakae with bwg.. haha.. do wadever with bwg also wun get bored de.. cos they are my closest and nicest grp of frends.. dunno hows tt young hen doin.. haha.. shld be ok with his acadaemic stuff.. he so smart.. L1R5 6 leh.. haiz but he has to leave us for aus.. well well.. maybe he just wanna challenge them in australia football.. which is now his favourite sports tt he watch i guess so =X

 

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just now on my way home met xing-a-ling-a-ling and she said jillian and kaiting got harmoc stuff to do so she also no one accompany her to play.. aww.. guess its the banner.. but haha.. jillian and kaiting also cannot play.. boo.. wadever i m so childish.. and i heard her say over the fone to meet up for pw.. and weide and shu xuan is in her team.. so i told xing-a-ling-a-ling to meet on mon cos weide and shu xuan like goin out on mon.. then if got pw then they can't go out buhahah.. ok i m mean.. cos no one wanna play wtih me.. sianz.. i play with my com ba.. gd luck for promos results everyone.. hope u get promoted..

argh!! after reading for so long still do like shit.. i think i really wasted time reading on econs.. shit la.. not enough time to write also.. write till my hand so pain!! then came physics.. lots of time in fact.. then quite doable la.. just tt some qn i really dunno.. but nver mind.. jiayou 2 more days to k box with 25/06 gals.. any guys wanna come? haha.. i cannot tahan one person singing all the guy songs.. tmr is maths.. i go mug lor.. (actually go watch tv la.. yu le bai fen bai!!)

dead.. i surely flunk my gp.. tmr is the long day as usual.. econs and physics!!! dead.. owned.. cya ppl all the best.. hope u still can walk out of sch alive tmr..

yeah.. heres a post to tell u bout my racial harmony frends.. ahha.. though we always very racist.. haha.. anw.. yah.. these are my good buddies in my class.. cos they are my fun-filled frends.. cannot tahan.. so funny.. they always will say things tt is either very pervertic or they will just crack jokes to suan each other.. haha..

 

i have jeya, suren, nikesh, sundaram, wilson, huddy... haha.. they are really funny.. i really enjoy time with them.. everyday all the stupid jokes from them.. maybe its really better to have a grp of frends u can play with.. at least i m not tt lonely.. at least i m not detested by anyone though it has been the case since i was in pri sch.. its better this way.. i realise it is nice to have things simple and sweet instead of all complicated and think too much for everything i do.. haha.. tts how life is for these guys cos they are enjoying life and at the same time working for their dreams.. so its really nice to be with them.. keep me so entertained..

 

of course i wun forget my bwg ppl.. gj,zk,wd,zw,jh,yh,cs.. they are the nicest ppl on earth.. i just went down for breakfast and saw 2 old ah pei sitting there so relax.. if i m to have frends like this till old age.. and have buddies together.. it will be so nice.. then i wun regret anything.. tts a happy ending.. so i really like my life to revolve arnd these frends.. imagine frends for life.. life time frends.. haha.. maybe gj will be my life-time frend.. since we met since pri sch.. so many years down the road le.. and my bwg frends.. imagine if we join s league.. haha.. tt will also be a new exp.. wow..

 

haha i m dreaming again.. dream of a future so far.. yet so near.. cos everything tt i do now will somehow affect the life tt i go through.. dare to dream? not quite.. everyone has their own burdens and dreams are hard to be real.. but nver the less work towards our dreams.. cos u nver noe prob one day bwg will really join s league and have more members and set up international branch! haha.. ok i m dreaming again.. "Singapore Dreaming"!

eh yo.. wad the hell m i doing late at this time? its 2+ in the morning.. and i m writing my newest entry on my blog.. tts becos i slpt at 7++ then woke up at arnd 12.. then i decided to stay awake till tmr morning..

 

feeling alittle bit sick.. sore throat.. mild cough.. feeling a little frustrated.. feeling alittle helpless.. dun feel like coming to sch tmr.. sianz.. promos countdown is in 3 days.. i really want to take a nice break after tt! but thinking of the duration of the paper.. really scary.. i wanna go k box!

haiz.. lately keep revising and studying.. everybody is dointt this week.. so its ok.. but like my stamina doesn't take me far.. i very lazy and tired liao so shall take a few days break.. not total break bu more time to play and slp.. so i shall go slp now.. nthing much.. only to say tt lately studying with wanyi let me see somethings in diffrent prespective.. and also learn some things.. her attitude is really great.. very nice person.. dun usually blow up unless u are unreasonable which many of my classmates are.. but well she forgive them as well.. haha tts all just to talk good abt her then she will read my blog.. =)

now the time is 11:45pm date sept 24th..

 

listening to SHE's music.. sitting in front of my com.. studying organic chem to prepare my small test with wanyi.. haha.. purposely challenge her so tt i will force myself to study for organic chem.. nver mind.. promos will be in a week time.. nxt week at this time i shld be slping already.. mind shld be full of recent news.. gp paper on mon..

 

so scary.. the promos is coming!! i m gonna challenge myself to this promos.. i wanna score well!! not just to promote!!! haiz.. but i alittle scared.. cos i afraid i will write until hand pain.. and this exam i have a few goals.. so rather kiakia.. but at this rate i m revising with my frends and alone i think i shld be able to make it.. this is the final lap for year 1.. and i want to hand up a nice scoresheet to conclude this yr..

 

weird enough.. i only get to know my classmates better recently.. haha.. i hope our class will stay as one despite bonds are not strong.. pls dun drop subject or get retained.. cos i still like my class.. everything still can turn better de.. for those who has gave up on some ppl.. nxt yr will be better.. exams are coming.. but yet there are still so many unfinished business.. tt includes pw.. but wad i refers is r/s problems.. and u noe it does affects ur mentality on studying.. tmr will be a fresh start.. all my revision will be done with my teachers.. i can go consult them!! ahah.. then i can clear all my doubts.. and i will also give a hand to my frends if theyt need help.. pull each other up.. and we will be still in a class nxt yr.. jiayou le all my classmates, my frends and my beloved bwg members.. we will meet again after promos.. for now all the best to everyone..

 

-listening to "close to you" now.. nice song.. esp at nite.. 4 mins more to a new day!

arnd one more week.. promos are coming.. ppl finally have the chance to fulfil their aspirations.. for some its just another dreadful exam.. for me its a mixture of pursueing of dreams and a dreadful thingy..

 

i really dunno cos wad i m doin now i m not certain whether its ok or not.. i m rather slack but yet not tt i din do anything but just too slow.. just not very focused.. my revision is like pieces here and there.. so to consolidate them i really need more and more practices.. can't believe the year is coming to an end so quickly.. time really flies.. soon we will be in a levels and i will then go ns.. come out to uni and work.. in this fast-paced world, everything seems to be ever-changing.. ppl are always changing..

 

recalled my past.. in pri sch.. i was so quiet so insociable so alone.. my mum said i look so poor thing always recess time eat alone.. yah i still can rmb.. tt period of time i was so far from my mum.. felt really weird.. first day of sch i cried.. i told my frends i wasn't crying just tired.. just to show tt i m not a crybaby.. well i m a crybaby at young.. then as i grew older till pri 6.. had so many frends.. more and more.. but then i was just a mummy's boy who keeps getting bullied by others.. cause i was always so nice.. haiz.. nver did i thought of retalliating but to just cry and wait for someone to rescue me.. i was already like tt since young.. always waiting for ppl to help me.. really dependent on others..

 

then i went to sec sch.. sec 1 & 2.. made new frends make really good frends.. somehow its since sec 1 & 2 i start to open up to others.. my new frends are out-going.. somemore guojie was in my this grp of frends then did i confide in me and start to interact.. that 2 years it was really full of fun.. sometimes it has been a real waste of time.. cos i had to wait for them and all we did was play and play.. finally i scored badly.. went to sec 3.. new class.. new faces.. no one tt i really noe of.. i thought these ppl must have be bad ppl.. cos they must have also din study well and get into the same class as me.. haha.. i was wrong.. in fact they are smart.. and nice ppl.. i always got this assumption tt classes tt are not the top are full of bad students.. biased point of view.. well i get along with my class mates.. in sec 4 became the class chairman.. for the first time i was in charge of a leadership role.. felt tt this is wad i really want which is to lead.. but leading wasn't always so good.. its like if u keep playing along the safe side u will nver make changes.. thus when problems came it is the courage to go out and fight the problem that makes a leader different.. but even at tt time i wasn't very sure wad i did was rite.. i sided some group of ppl and became slightly bias.. but finally came back on track.. some ppl might not like me some might like me.. but it was really tough.. cos the feeling is like i m fighting the battle alone.. but even then i have to bring everybody together.. make things good for everyone.. try not to side any party and bring the good side of everything to everyone.. but i realise my leadership at tt time wasn't tt great.. but wad to expect from a shy in nature guy.. expectations are high.. rewards are low.. but after sec 4 i learned alot from classmates.. some things tt are taught in leadership courses but i get to experience it first..

 

then i came to ajc.. first 3 mths.. really din like the feeling.. i was so unsure of new frends.. i nver want to accept new frends.. i just want to be in my comfort zone.. but first 3 mts i din really had lots of my frends arnd me.. yang han was busy socialising arnd.. he is a born natural high person.. just like in sec 1.. then i was so shy again.. i became myself again.. then met new class mates.. but really very glad tt i was in the same class as kaiting and xingying.. or else i also dunno wad to do.. well r/s with xingying and kaiting improved.. even in 4/3 i wasn't always communicating with them.. but well miraculously i became like a close frend to them.. how did we do tt.. haha.. but anw they are the nicest frends i have with me at tt time.. well i had new classmates as well.. very nice ones.. very outgoing ones.. but then soon it was time to part.. after first 3mths, i wasn't with them anymore.. none of them was in my new class,2506.. at first was rather disappointed.. disappointed tt i din made it with weide they all.. and mix with a class filled with strangers..but gd thing is tt i have some andersonians with me.. this new class started off ok.. then we had creamble tea where cracks start to surface.. there are argues.. misunderstandings.. but good thing is  tt everything went out well.. then the nxt few mths more and more misunderstandings.. less and less class interaction.. many things tt ppl are displeased with.. many felt some had changed.. some were disappointed tt some turned out to be like tt which they din expect.. some just went into states of depression like me.. some just din give a damn abt anything but themselves.. then came council for me.. a new cca for me.. a new tryout as a leader.. then realised i wasn't really ready to be a leader.. i felt inferior.. but there wasn't turning back but just to endure.. through these few mths in ajc.. saw so many changes.. saw some of the true feelings true behaviour of ppl.. true nature of ppl..

 

it has been a journey.. a journey tt i just embark on.. this is just the learning stage.. soon i will be moving towards the application stage.. where nature will play a fool of u.. where ppl will go far from ideality.. where the real truth is.. sadden by it yet there isn't anything i can do.. but to hope tt good things are still there in life..

 

promos coming.. spent a lot of time typing this entry.. take a deep breath and lets continue the battle.. "expect the rainbow after the rain.."

today had pw.. went to amk mac.. did some discussion and some hw as well.. but then later we decided to go joanne's hse.. cos then can we charge the laptop.. today's meeting only had me liyue and joanne.. then we went to joanne hse.. had some pizza and liyue drank all out drinks.. haha.. then we had some new ideas.. rather fruitful.. guess sometimes discussion can be done in small grps.. and its more efficient.. then we discuss discuss.. had some jokes rather lame.. and then we sidetrack and started gossiping.. haha.. i realise gossiping is really a nice way to bond..

 

on my way back home.. i thought alot.. our class is starting to integrate.. due to some attitudes displayed.. displeasures.. lies.. lack of responsibilities.. i thought our class wld soon hate each other.. i thought we shld like accept each other's differences.. but its really hard cos ppl just can't take bad attitudes or ideologies differing from them.. well.. later i realise in fact these bad attitudes might slowly lead to us bonding.. cos the others will have a common dislike.. and this will lead to majority coming together to fight against those tt have undesirable attitudes.. however such methods to bond is really not gd.. cos it is selfish.. tt is to say we leave out the minority.. and in a way it is 2 grps/cliques formed then.. haiz.. yet this is bound to be one of the resulting outcome..

 

if everyday cld be nice and happy and peaceful.. if everyone is ready to give.. if everyone takes time to understand each other and think in ppl's perspectives.. if only man can be less selfish.. its really hard to move everyone in one direction.. suspicions.. selfishness.. why can ppl just think for themselves.. the world is full with ppl.. one person cld nver just work alone.. why must we go through so much pain and sufferings.. why can't we just keep to our words and mean wad we say.. its tiring to scold ppl who is self-centred and thinks abt himself only.. the real truth must really be seek through other torturous ways? pls cherish the chance when it is given to u.. not misuse it and in the end hurt everyone.. cherish the ppl who gives u chance who are arnd u.. cos u are hurting them..

aiyoh.. lately really goin to piss of many ppl.. omg.. why i like tt de.. m i really tt bad?

 

i really wish i can like apply for a break.. cos its tiring to meet ppl.. cos its like how shld i talk to them.. wad tone? and working with ppl is hard.. i dunno.. but i seriously dun usually get so worked up over stuff.. if i do its really accumulated.. but talking it out is really better.. but sometimes if conflicts aren't handled well its just more suspicions and more barriers.. i think i really screw up on this part.. cos whenever i argue/quarrel with others i usually lose out de.. not tt i only accept victory.. but i dunno.. its like i dun like quarrel fightings.. if things can be done properly without hurting each other why not? but i really tried.. i really tried to talk nicely.. wad shld i do? shld i just take a step back and apologize? sorry is the hardest word to say.. esp when i really find myself quarreling with a valid reason.. if i m in the wrong i will accept my mistakes and criticism.. but if not why shld i apologize.. but i will say getting worked up = my fault..

 

i dunno why this jc is so unfeeling.. i told my mum the other day.. i want to contribute to my friends.. show them care and concern in any ways i can.. my mum said then who is goin to show care and concern for u? i told her, mummy.. if u dun give first how do u expect to receive.. until now i believe in wad i say.. but i m slowly proved wrong.. or issit i din put much enough.. i dunno.. i now very jia lat la.. its like in sch only u can take care of urself.. no one is goin to save ur ass..

 

today was a rather bad day.. slpy.. getting conflicts here and there.. ruin my own image.. get laughed at.. felt like crying in sch for once.. felt so lack of trust and support.. schedule getting really tight.. sl and pw.. this one yr journey has been tiring.. has been enriching.. after all the bad things and the god things.. its coming to an end soon but i really feel i might not reach the end.. i feel like giving it all up.. i dunno whether i shld approach teachers abt personal stuff cos its like i think they will expect me to solve these probs myself.. and teachers in my view is just concerned abt academic stuff.. everyone is working so hard in sch.. no one will like stop to wait for u isn't it..

 

i had too many setbacks le.. if i can still be a crybaby.. to just cry my heart out.. it will definitely feel alot more better.. but i can't do tt.. probs will still be there after i cry.. i shld behave as a young adult.. solve probs like a young adult.. bitter.. really bitter.. if u r reading my blog pls do tag and say sth.. cos i really need support.. thanks alot..

today went out to play soccer with bwg and louis zhirong zhao liang and jia hao4 .. din really played much cos the court was used by some ppl playing basketball.. but well overall i will say my street soccer defending skills has improved quite alot.. haha..

 

after tt bwg went out to marina square.. originally we wanted to eat sakae sushi.. but then.. they din have the buffet.. aww.. the waitress in sakae is so kawaii.. haha.. we asked her whether other sakae outlets got buffet not? then she says she dun think got.. and she said if u wanna go eat buffet u can try suki.. haha.. tts really cute.. haha imf really improved singapore's service standard? haha.. i dunno.. but anw we can't find suki.. so we went yuki yaki.. which meant snow and fire.. i guess.. cos saw the chinese wording in the restaurant.. made a wild guess.. yuki yaki is like seoul garden where u need to bbq the stuff.. ate lots of beef.. haha.. very nice.. then we were so full and slpy tt we started playing zhong ji mi ma.. haha.. tts a traditional game la.. so long nver play alr.. cool man.. but i seem to be the lucky one tt i nver got hit once.. haa.. even when they played cheat.. haha.. so loser them.. haha..

 

then we went to played arcade.. haha.. favourite game of the year.. winning eleven arcade version.. won weide and zhi kai once.. but then wei de later became so strong tt i lost.. sob.. he play cheat de.. stupid corner kick.. tyco.. then after tt we just went home lor..

 

watched a little bit of "i m same" on channel 5.. i watched tt show movie alr though.. but i really like the story so watched again.. very touched la.. there is this part tt i want to extract.. "you don't know how it feels to have really tried and tried and tried.. tried so hard but still just can't reach it.." this part was said when sam was so desperate to win the lawsuit to get back her daughter and wanted to give up.. i think this line cld have applied to some of my frends.. the feeling of trying and tring time after time but u still can't see the results.. its really demoralising.. but i wld say stay strong continue fighting.. rest when u need but most imptly nver give up.. cos all ur previous efforts will go down the drain.. just take a break.. get support from frends.. give them a sms and tell them how much support u need from them.. talk it out.. sms it out.. msn it out.. cry it out.. complain it out.. but nver keep it to urself and keep a strong front in front of others.. it wun help okie.. its not something embarassing to show tt u are in need of help.. so a sms will do.. frends will help u de..

today i had physics lecture in sch.. well have been goin to sch for the last 3 days.. but this is the final day to go back.. physics was rather boring.. as usual.. somemore its taught by mr yip.. but he is cute at times.. omg.. i m using the word cute to describe him.. haha.. cos he will sprout some nonsense and we will laugh at it.. haha..

 

went to mac after lessons.. with jeya they all.. of course b4 tt i had pw.. i mean pw is always on going.. omg.. my grp is really screwed up now.. cos we cldn't break out of this vicious cycle.. dunno why.. i think we need time to really get everyone to listen to each other.. we dun really know each other well enough.. but at the same time there is like not much time for this.. haiz.. i will see wad i can do.. after mac we went to play LAN.. haiz.. rather regretful.. spent 6.30.. and wasted time.. but well its a lesson learnt.. i will nver go back to LAN.. but well good thing is that at least i get to know wad is the majority of the guy's life like.. experience it.. and cherish mine more.. haha.. goin broke soon.. die la.. promos coming.. but i seem to like have a large gap from my aims and goals.. hope i still can make it on time to get more as bs and cs.. haha..

 

i realise being with the guys in the class is damn funny.. haha.. they will say something to suan each other.. and i find tt very amusing.. esp when u can't expect ppl to say such stuff.. haha.. so it was rather an enjoyable trip back home on the train.. but the way they talk are rather vulgar.. so on tt part i was rather concerned about ajc's reputation and image.. haha.. but on the whole ya i like it.. haha.. fun ppl.. rock my life.. hahha.. i m goin to study le!! repainting my new life.. its a carefree life.. yeh!! a happy-go-lucky life..

today had econs lecture.. really enriching.. clear all my doubts and had a clearer pic of how to answer essay qns..

 

today very high!! went to sumo hse and eat with yue qiu li yue jaylo tianshi jaywoo joyce subee and wendy!! then we had a great time over there.. talk cock alot.. literally talking "cock" ouch.. alrite then saw li yi and her frends coming in.. haha.. then we went home.. on the train we continue to crap.. and keep talking about untrue scandals.. then very funny..

 

liyue and yueqiu thought i mad liao.. today so high.. haha.. i think i must be crazy lor.. cannot be serious or else will be very unhappy.. and my crazy is real crazy one lor.. i will laugh and laugh and talk cock alot.. also dunno wad i saying tt kind.. might seems stupid to u buti enjoy being like tt.. ahha.. very fang de kai.. relax.. yah so i m like tt de.. the anderson deannie.. anderson sec of course..

today i started off with the day very bad.. cos i thought since i din do much of my work i definitely gonna screw up.. but luckily it din happen and in fact the day end off well..